So we’re still trying to finalize the details of the last placement, so that’s slowing down our house being back on the list in one of the main counties our agency gets referrals from. We are getting calls from other counties, but either the situation hasn’t been a good fit or we haven’t been picked. I think we’re up to 6 calls since our last placement, but still no kids.
So we’re waiting.
And every call and disappointment leaves you second-guessing other decisions, like should I have gotten a mini-van rather than the 5 seaters. Or should we have fought to keep our last kids, or should we take single kids, or, or, or.
But in the clear-headed moments, I know we’re making choices that ultimately will lead right where we need to be for our future family.
And while every call leaves us a little disappointed we don’t have kids, at the end of the day, we are still in a good place, trusting God’s plan for whatever ever kids come for now and whichever kids will stay forever.
It’s weird for me to say I’m at peace with everything, but I am. Maybe after so many hard moments attacking my Patience, it’s getting easier to just wait on God. But I also know if I’m still waiting next Christmas that might the end of my rope. Hopefully, it won’t be that long. It sounds like maybe January will be the latest.
So we keep waiting and try to be faithful and know that it’s never no, but not yet. And we look for the positive, like a lot of the calls we’ve gotten have been sib sets of 4 and we can only have 3 at a time, so we haven’t gotten placements because the kids get to stay together. That always makes me happy. Or the fact we still have some freedom as a couple to do things when we feel like it without planning ahead. And then there’s the fact, schedules are less complicated right now. So we try and enjoy this moment, even though we’re ready for the next.
P.S. keeping the house kid-proof when there are no kids is maybe the most difficult part our of current moment. Every time we get a call, I panic on how much we need to put away and clean up. But I also figure we’ll make it work when it does happen. I live for a little chaos anyways 🙂
